my heart beats in the heat
in the courtroom silence
with hands tied
in the cool metal of handcuffs
the past echoes around me
at the stand and in my memories
i still hear the ringing of his screams
—The choice was quick.
overhauling emotions
heaving breaths & humid air
there was ruby-red blood
then trembling fingers on a phone
nine-one-one
handcuffs
orange attire
the eyes of the jury judging
my lawyer, with notes & paperwork
& my grief bottled up
with so much spite for a someone
with a love that could’ve been shared
a love i ended
the stand is waiting for me to confess
wanting to know if I am a villain
serial raged with a thirst for blood
i have been bleeding fear
dripping from my bones & body
losing my internal warmth
—I was never going to be ready.
yet the room was waiting for my answer
to know my thoughts before the fall of it all
There was a choice & in the rushing heat
I chose my life